Stories of Recovery


These stories were originally published in the connection, FA's monthly magazine written by food addicts, for food addicts. Each post shares a different author's perspective. Visit this page often to read more experience, strength, and hope about recovery in FA. To get the newest issue of connection Magazine sent directly to your mailbox or inbox, click here to subscribe to the connection.

New Gifts to Give

Ah, the holidays are upon us. My sponsor speaks of all the sparkly food out there this time of year. Each time I walk into a grocery store, I heed her words. Everything in the store is designed to make me want to buy it. In truth, because it is food, it doesn’t take much to draw me in. That is why, after three years in Program, I’ve learned to gauge my state of mind before I enter a grocery store or attend a party. I ask myself if I am tired, hungry, feeling resentment, feeling excess joy—feeling anything that makes my radar go up. If I am, I’ve learned that it is probably better for me to postpone my shopping or ask my husband to do it instead. One of the things I’ve come to recognize in Program is how easily I am over stimulated. The buying frenzy and... Continue Reading

 


 

The More I Exercised, The More I Ate

I was searching for a solution to get out of my obese body. I tried injections, ate raw eggs, drank oil and milk three times a day, and went on a grapefruit diet. I tried a wine diet, where I drank one glass of wine three times a day. One last thing my doctor suggested was that I should wire my teeth and have liquid food through a straw. I am diabetic type 2. My doctor warned me I could lose my legs or I could become blind. My mother was diabetic and died at the age of 50. My father was diabetic, refused to have treatment, and died in his 60s. I joined a health club and decided to become a water aerobics fitness instructor. I also taught dance exercise at a College. I lost weight, became more interested in energy healing, and became a practitioner of Qigong massage,... Continue Reading

 


 

A Work in Progress

When I came into FA I was utterly desperate.  Just a few months prior to that date,  I had ended up in the hospital for three days after a major binge.  My diagnosis was a swollen colon.  I had eaten a food combination that was thick and pasty. I had eaten so much of it that my side started to hurt.  It was late at night, so I went off to bed.  When I woke up the next morning, I was fine.  One week later I had another binge on that same food combination and my side started to hurt again, so just like last time, I went to bed. The next morning when I woke up I wasn’t fine.  My side pain progressed for the next few days and ended up in the hospital. I was so embarrassed.  The medical staff asked me all kinds of questions.  I knew... Continue Reading

 


 

Living the Solution

Turning to food was definitely my natural reaction to life. Hadn’t it always been there for me?  Surely I couldn’t survive without it. I’d always turned to food when I felt happy, sad, mad, scared, rejected, worried, or abandoned. Food got me through, but now what I had once called “my friend” seemed to have betrayed me and become my greatest enemy. I couldn’t seem to get enough food in me anymore, and it wasn’t bringing the relief it once had. The food wasn’t working anymore!  What else was there? When I decided to come into FA, it felt like it was my last option. I was exhausted and hopeless, and I weighed more than I ever had. I had said I’d never hit 200 pounds, but my weight was headed to the mid-200s and not stopping. Surprisingly, it really wasn’t the weight that brought me in. What drove me... Continue Reading

 


 

My Higher Power Saved Me From A Near Collision With Fast Food

It was the last day on vacation with my sister and I was asleep in the car, as my sister navigated three highways to get us to her apartment. Merely ten minutes from our beds, the unthinkable happened. My sister’s old, blue Toyota had been hit by a black Honda that ran a red light and was turning into our intersection. Upon impact, my sister lost control and we were pushed off the road and headed towards a fast-food restaurant. I jolted awake. I woke up to the most disorienting feeling and a loud, hard noise, followed by a feeling of weightlessness. My head whipped forward and the passenger-side seat belt bit into my hip. I could feel the shock of not knowing if we were hurt. I started praying out loud and, as I did, the car came to a stop. I opened my door and my sister and... Continue Reading